Headed for an ASP meeting

Pharm exam: 66

I don't want to talk about it...I'm not ready to...I don't want to. What is there to say really?

I have one more exam left, I know it'll go better, and thats pretty much it.

...I feel like I can't get over it...unfortunately, feeling bad about it didn't last for 2.5 minutes...it feels like a shadow following me around. It makes me feel bad about myself. Like a bad student. Like I don't deserve to go on vacation. Like I shouldn't be a PA. Upside: everyone else didn't so so hot either. Maybe they'll curve it?

ASP here I come... Academic Standing P(don't know what the P stands for)

[ASP is the board you have to have a meeting with to discuss the classes you were "deficient" in, why, what you've done to learn the information since, and what you've changed about what you did wrong. I cried when I went in October for last semester...I said, "I'm never doing that ever again", and here I am, definitely on my way to another meeting. Some asshole made me feel awful saying things like, "Well it doesn't matter if you felt you knew the information and that the test score didn't show it, you are still deficient, you still got an 82 and not an 83, you are deficient." Excellent, can't wait.]

I'm going to get an A on tomorrow's exam. Hopefully that'll make me feel like I deserve a vacation, even if just a little bit.