I will survive

So technically it was only one night of alcohol, and I couldn't even down the 2nd shot of tequila. So, total was one shot of tequila and then a sex on the beach. Given my low tolerance, I had a nice buzz goin.

So I'm feeling better. I won't have to go to ASP again. I'll probably just have to retake the exam, it won't set me back as far as having to graduate later. Unless they really want me to.. so it all depends on this meeting on friday.

PA conference started today; it's a 4 day thing. Gonna meet my PA boyfriend there tonight :) He's been helping me study and I hate when he says "I am so glad I have my license and am done with this program sh*t" - bcuz I'm not done yet and don't have my license! But seeing him and hearing his stories bout patients everyday helps me see the light at the end of the tunnel and know theres a great life after PA school - can't wait to get there!

So one week left of my "suspension". Things on the list:

1. Finish medicine paper (UGH)
2. Study in preparation to retake Internal Medicine exam.
3. Update resume to start applying for jobs (listen fools, I know you're secretly snickering "psh if she even makes it!")
3. Actually put away a month's worth of laundry.
4. Do 3 weeks worth of laundry; make sure I put THOSE away.
5. Clean room!

That is all. For today: wash sheets, mani!, bank, pack, make a dent in putting clothes away.

no such thing as luck.

it wasn't one exam. it was 2. failed one. passed the other. meeting on friday to discuss remediation.

i. hate. PA. school.

theme of the weekend: alcohol.

Can't wait till it's not about the grades

If I managed my time better and actually stuck to schedules I set for myself, I'd say I'd be able to calmly type out my thoughts on this blog just about every single day. But, since I do not,I end up writing once a month...or the day before an exam when I should be studying. ...as is the case today. ha.

Yes, i'm still in the program. Surprise surprise. I haven't failed miserably quite yet. Though if I do not pass this 100-150 multiple choice question exam focusing on Surgery and Internal Medicine tomorrow. That will lead to me to being in the class of 2011 and not of 2010. So that being said. I had 3 weeks undisturbed to study for it. I studied for at least an hour or two a day, sometimes 3-4 hours and have studied for 5-6 hours everyday this week. Today is my last day to cover topics I haven't looked at. And hope that if theres a question on one of those topics, I choose correctly. The goal is to get at least a 70% on this exam. And I believe it is feasible. If it's a fair exam. I'm not that stupid that I would get less than the 70%. However, if they choose mostly crappy obscure questions, well then odds are against me. And I'm not sure I would want to stay in this PA program and deal with it for another year. Maybe I'd drop out, strip for a couple years to pay off my loans, and then go to school for performing arts or just art. And my well to do husband will support me until I become a successful artist (or maybe writer?). While we live in northern california with our chocolate lab, Lindt...

Hm. We'll see.

Hasta luego.